Complete Surrender

We found out last week there is another family reviewing Isaac's file.  No, they haven't decided to move forward yet, but (and this is a big but) they might. 

I have always worried.  It's what I do.  I worry when I don't have anything to worry about. 

I keep reminding God that Isaac is ours and he doesn't need other families reviewing his file.  This morning God led me to James 4:13-17.  The NIV reads "Now listen, you who say, 'Today or tomorrow we will go to this or that city, spend a year there, carry on business and make money.' 14 Why, you do not even know what will happen tomorrow.  What is your life?  You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.  15 Instead, you ought to say, 'If it is the Lord's will, we will live and do this or that.'  16 As it is you boast and brag.  All such boasting is evil.  17 Anyone, then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn't do it, sins."

Ok, that got my attention!

Dear Lord,

I believe you have set us on this path and yet I worry about how you are going to see us through.  I am so sorry!  I do not doubt your power.  Please help me remember that though I am weak, you are strong.  I give my worries and anxieties to you. 

Amen.

 

A letter to Isaac

Dear Isaac,

I think about you constantly.  There are things a mother knows about her children, that I don't know about you yet.  What's your favorite toy, do you sleep with a special blanket, do you liked to be rocked to sleep, do you like to snuggle, have you ever been taken to church?  Even with so many unknowns you are most certainly mine!

I wonder what it will be like for you once you are home.  What will you think about your brother and sister?  Andrew is so serious.  He's like an 83 year old man in a 5 year old's body.  He is protective, compassionate, kind, and instead of playing sports he likes to play chess.  Olivia is spirited.  I used to say she was stubborn, but your Moe (you will LOVE her) told me I shouldn't call her that so I decided she is spirited.  There is never a dull moment when Olivia is here.  She is loyal, tender hearted, and getting sweeter by the day.  Oh and her baby doll is her favorite possession. 

You have a new cousin that was born this past Tuesday.  Hunter was born weighing in at 10lbs 8oz.  He weighed 3 times what your brother did when he was born. 

It is so hard not knowing when you will be coming home, but your Dad and I know that God knows exactly how this will unfold and we put our trust in Him.  Just know that we love you and we will continue to pray for all things as we wait for you!

Love,
Mommy

Christmas

With all the craziness that goes with Christmas, have you stopped to remember what it is we are really celebrating?  Sure, the gifts are fun, but this year it's hard for me to get excited about them.  The gift I am excited about is Jesus Christ.  A gift that doesn't require a penny, but that is worth everything! 

Hebrews 13:5-6
5 "Your life should be free from the love of money.  Be satisfied with what you have, for He Himself has said, I will never leave you or forsake you.  6 Therefore, we may boldly say:  The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid.  What can man do to me?"

Praying for all things,
Necia